Weight Gain

Gee, I quit smoking and didn't gain weight. Wow.

Oh, wait...I replaced cig's with lozenges. Now that the lozenges are gone, how do I reward myself with little cheap thrills every couple of hours a day?

I think if I'm to be a stereotypical quit-smoking-weight-gainer, it will begin now.

Goddamn, I want a lozenge right now. Just some little tingly buzz. Something!

If I was to take a drink or smoke marijuana, it wouldn't help. Rather than distract me, it would increase the desire for nicotine, as well as break down my resistance. Drinking always breaks down discipline, and makes you susceptible to saying "f**k it" to any responsiblity.

I chew these little pillow-shaped pieces of sugarless gum. I buy the little plastic jars of them. They help with the oral fixation to some small degree, but nothing is ever enough.

I just carry on, day after day, hoping the desire will fade; that I'll get over it, or at least get used to it.