Yesterday, on my way home from work, an idea popped into my head.
I thought about stopping off at a convenience store and picking up a pack of the good ol' wide lights.
It was sunny, but not too hot. The idea of finding some spot in a parking lot with a minimal amount of shade, adjusting the seat back a bit, and lighting up sounded like just the thing I needed; the solution to all my worries.
Just kicking back there smoking a cigarette or five, daydreaming away an hour or so.
Man....
But then I realized how f*cking disgusting smoking is, and how it fucked me over for so god d*mned many years, and got some heart clogging fast food instead.
It's nice to not having much of anything to post here anymore...or rather, lately.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
Stacy Keach: Cocaine vs. Nicotine
Stacy Keach was the guest for an extensive interview on The Adam Carolla Show today.
In going through his life and career, the conversation naturally moved toward Keach's well known cocaine bust at Heathrow Airport in 1984.
He said that his cocaine addiction at that time was to the point that he is convinced that getting busted may very well have saved his life.
In prison, he was forced into unaided detoxification. He went from doing cocaine all day/every day/night to complete abstinence.
He was also a heavy cigarette smoker.
When asked how painful it was to quit cocaine cold-turkey, he said it wasn't that bad. It was being deprived of cigarettes that was excruciating. Giving up cocaine was easy for him, compared to quitting smoking.
In going through his life and career, the conversation naturally moved toward Keach's well known cocaine bust at Heathrow Airport in 1984.
He said that his cocaine addiction at that time was to the point that he is convinced that getting busted may very well have saved his life.
In prison, he was forced into unaided detoxification. He went from doing cocaine all day/every day/night to complete abstinence.
He was also a heavy cigarette smoker.
When asked how painful it was to quit cocaine cold-turkey, he said it wasn't that bad. It was being deprived of cigarettes that was excruciating. Giving up cocaine was easy for him, compared to quitting smoking.
Monday, February 14, 2011
2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY
I just hit the 2 year mark -- my 2nd Anniversary as a Non-Smoker. Yay, me!
If I can do it, you can do it, motherf*ckers!
Wish me luck in year 3 and beyond.
It definitely gets easier after the excruciating hell of withdrawal. And easier still after the first year. But, that demon is always there, waiting in the wings. He's smirking and tapping his foot; just waiting for any sign of weakness when he can step in and shove his dick in my mouth (his dick being a lit cigarette).
If I can do it, you can do it, motherf*ckers!
Wish me luck in year 3 and beyond.
It definitely gets easier after the excruciating hell of withdrawal. And easier still after the first year. But, that demon is always there, waiting in the wings. He's smirking and tapping his foot; just waiting for any sign of weakness when he can step in and shove his dick in my mouth (his dick being a lit cigarette).
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Looking Back
Some things in life look better the smaller they get in your rear view mirror. After they are out of sight, they are at the mercy of selective memory. They lose weight, warts disappear, etc.
This can easily happen with cigarettes in the mind of the quitter.
I'm coming up on 2 years post-smoking.
That feeling still occasionally sweeps over me; an imagined rushing sensation, as in the anticipation of that first suck off a lit cigarette. Often, it's seeing someone on the screen/monitor taking in a much needed, very satisfying whiff of first-hand smoke that triggers it.
It seems like the memory of pleasurable aspects of smoking remain eternally intact. They can re-enter the mind at any time effortlessly or despite any effort to suppress them.
The detrimental aspects -- all the things terrible things associated with smoking, from perpetual coughing, the stench of all surrounding cloth, the nagging need that makes everything in between cigarettes an excruciating ordeal, etc. -- however, seem to take a concerted effort to retain. You have to perpetually remind yourself...in explicit terms.
By the way, I can't imagine being able to successfully quit smoking while drinking alcohol on a regular basis. Get a buzz on, and the aforementioned concerted effort dissolves in the foam.
This can easily happen with cigarettes in the mind of the quitter.
I'm coming up on 2 years post-smoking.
That feeling still occasionally sweeps over me; an imagined rushing sensation, as in the anticipation of that first suck off a lit cigarette. Often, it's seeing someone on the screen/monitor taking in a much needed, very satisfying whiff of first-hand smoke that triggers it.
It seems like the memory of pleasurable aspects of smoking remain eternally intact. They can re-enter the mind at any time effortlessly or despite any effort to suppress them.
The detrimental aspects -- all the things terrible things associated with smoking, from perpetual coughing, the stench of all surrounding cloth, the nagging need that makes everything in between cigarettes an excruciating ordeal, etc. -- however, seem to take a concerted effort to retain. You have to perpetually remind yourself...in explicit terms.
By the way, I can't imagine being able to successfully quit smoking while drinking alcohol on a regular basis. Get a buzz on, and the aforementioned concerted effort dissolves in the foam.